I'm already getting the jitters about going to Japan, and it's only been a week since we found out that we were going. S will be there three months from now, and I'll be there a month later.
I'm already anxious. It feels like it'll be a huge disaster, and a big mistake for me - my personal life, my career, and everything I care about in my life, will be turned upside down.
Right now, I just want to walk away from it all.
That is all.